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Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Our moment in Heaven































This September the 17Th Fawn was sealed to our family for eternity. What a wonderful experience we had. We went to the Salt Lake Temple. We let the kids choose which temple we were going to since the Denver temple was closed. They said lets go to the castle temple, so we went to Salt Lake. The kids had never been to Salt Lake that they could remember. They loved it. We went to visit the this is the place monument, and some of our dear friends. We were able to visit my Aunt Jeanine, and my cousin Kurt and his family, we had a wonderful time. But the most wonderful of all was in the temple with our children.

I have to say first of all that our family has been so supportive and so loving to Fawn. I know that everyone would have loved to come to the temple. My sisters and brother had us in their heart and were excited. Emily made beautiful bracelets for Fawn and Isabel to wear and keep so they could always remember this special day. Amy was even considering coming pregnant and Paul and Sarah even thought about it. Bryant's family also wanted to to come, and would have if the didn't live to far and have work. We felt overwhelmed with the love and support. We also had in our hearts on this special day the Keyes a special family that made this possible, and Blake Sonne or lawyer and my cousin Joy, and most important of all Emma, Fawns birth mother, for giving her daughter to us to, she told us she wanted Fawn to have an eternal family, and I pray she will know how much this has meant to us.

When we first arrived at the temple we dropped the kids off at the child center. They waited there and changed while we changed too. We went to do all the paperwork, which ended up crazy since we left it in the car! Uncle Harold ran to the car to get it for us. We were so worried, but finally we were all changed. It felt a lot like our wedding day but with our whole family. After I changed the temple worker asked me to look in the mirror to see how beautiful I was. I looked in the mirror, but my thoughts were of Bryant and my family, I was so excited to see them. As we stepped out of the room Bryant was waiting for me. He held my hand and we waited in the Celestial room as our guests were brought to the sealing room. Then we entered the sealing room and as we entered I saw our family and some of our closest dearest friends. My mom took my hand as I sat next to her and the spirit quickened in my heart I felt it fill the room. Bryant sat on my other side and his mom next to him. All around us were his brother and sister and sister in law, my Aunt Jeanine and our friends Uncle Harold, Aunt Terry and cousin Terry McNeill. then our fathers were there. It was so beautiful. I heard giggles coming from the Hallway. The door opened and Eli practically ran in ,Isabel and Hyrum right behind, the were dressed in white and then little Fawn was being held by a temple worker. The spirit then began to sing within my heart for this is what it is all about . this my family together for Eternity this is what we should be working for each day. And now they were her in the temple of the most high God preforming this sacred ordinance. Our little Fawn being sealed to us for time and all eternity and our together children able to witness that their sister will be with them eternally . After the sealing was finished the sealer asked the children what they saw as they looked in the mirrors. Isabel said she saw forever. He said that's right and that is how your family will be.











What a wonderful moment for us. I feel so blessed that we had this experience, and for this incredible blessing. I felt so impatient at times when it seemed we would never be chosen and be able to adopt a baby. I am so thankful it took so long. I have learned so much from this experience, of patience and waiting on the Lords time and not my own. I can see now that it was necessary, and it was all worth it. I know the Lord has a plan for all of us, but sometimes we cannot see how it will all unfold, and He just wants us to take His hand and walk in faith. We did in this experience and we as a family have experienced true joy!

Adoption is a Heavenly Gift

To all our friends, We have started this blog because we want to keep others in touch with us, but the main purpose of this blog is to let all those that we know and their friends that we are trying to adopt. We feel so strongly about this and know that their is a precious life that is destined to come to our home.To those of you that do not know this is our story.When Bryant and I met and shortly before we were married Bryant asked me what I would do if we could not have children. I thought it a strange question, I said I did not know. He asked if I would be willing to adopt, I said yes I would. He asked several other questions, and then we never talked about adoption. We were married and shortly after had our first son, he was beautiful but was born and passed away within fifteen minutes. This was a trying experience, yet it helped us understand how hard it is to come home without a baby, and that we just needed to have faith that he was ok, and that the Lord was taking care of our little one.Since then we have had (as many of you know) three beautiful children: a daughter and two sons. They are the joy of our life!Each pregnancy came with great challenges, and many complications to my health. After our second son was born we lost two other babies due to misscarriage, and full of complications. It was at this time, that a friend of ours suggested adoption. We felt we needed to have more children than the two we had at home. I pondered it, but thought that we should try again. It was then that I had another misscarriage.It was at this time one day I took our children to a story time at the library. As we were getting ready to leave, my daughter tugged on my arm. "Look Mommy look!" I turned to look, and there was a little african american baby girl. " She so cute!" My daughter said. I felt something in my heart at that moment, it seemed like a prick and the thought came, you need to adopt. I thought perhaps I made up the feeling, but could not explain it because it was so strong.I then went home and my mother in law called me, she did not know that we had even had the second misscarriage, because we did not tell anyone that I was pregnant. She told me she had been thinking, and felt to tell us that we should adopt. I felt a stirring again in my heart. Later that day Bryant came home and told him all my thoughts. I then remembered a dream that I had each time before I delivered our children. In the dream I have a child but am very surprised because the baby does not look anything like us. As my husband and I talked I realized the meaning of this dream. He then told me he always thought that we would adopt.It was then that my husband and I knelt down in prayer and felt such a strong feeling that we did need to adopt, that a child needed to come to our family this way.It was then almost five years ago that we got ready to adopt we did our home study and have been ready ever since. Shortly after we were finished with our homestudy, we had a surprise and found out I was pregnant with our youngest son. We almost lost him at 16weeks, and I was very sick. We were so blessed to have him come to our family. After he was born we knew I could not have any more children. Still the feeling that we needed to adopt never left.So we have been waiting, waiting for someone to choose our family. We are have gotten really close, and have even been chosen , but things did not work out. We are trying to be patient, the feeling that our family is not complete remains strong. Our children have been such an example of faith to us. Our daughter especially she said that maybe she could win a race to pay for the adoption. And our son said maybe he could win the Hamburger contest at Red Robin, and then we could adopt a baby. Our youngest is so fond of babies, so gentle and sweet. Our children pray for a sibling. I think even they can feel the Lord preparing their heart for their new brother or sister.Sometimes it is hard to wait, but we know that the Lord will bless us, and lead that special mother to us. We are open to "open adoptions" (where we keep in contact with the birth mother). We pray for the birth mother whereever she is and hope that the spirit will lead her to us. We hope that when we do adopt that if she desires we can stay in contact with her, and let their little one know who gave them life like some of our relatives who were adopted and whose birth parents have also been a blessing in their life.We ask that you can keep us in your prayers when you can that this will happen at the right time also. We want to ask you if you can please share our story with your friends and family in hopes that we can be found by that special mom.We are working with LDS Family Services and this is the link to our profile for more pictures and more about us. https://www.itsaboutlove.org/ial/profiles/11193581/ourMessage.jsfWe love you all, thankyou for your prayers

Love,Bryant, Audrey & kids